I was raised in a Christian home.  I actually am one of those PK's (pastor's kid).  My family always took mission trips down to Mexico growing up.  When I was 12 years old, my sister told me what it meant to have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ and at first I didn't understand what she meant but I took the time to think things through.  A few months later, I finally got it and I knew I wanted to have that.

     I really tried to please God and please my parents growing up.  I almost always asked myself, "How would God feel if I did this?" or "How would my parents feel if I did that?" because I truly have respect for them.  I am not saying that I am perfect.  I made mistakes.  However, I feel that my parents were always proud of the decisions I made.

     On March 31, 2005 my mom passed away from diabetes.  I am not going to lie, I was mad at God.  Here I was, trying to please God and my parents and I felt like God had let me down.  My mom was an AMAZING woman of God and I tried my hardest to be one as well.  "What did I do to deserve this?",  "Why did my mom deserve to go through the pain she did?"

     I turned from God, the church and my family and turned to a ungodly relationship.  I felt that my boyfriend understood me better than God.  After about a year, I realized there was no one better to turn to than God.  I left the broken relationship (that I didn't realize was broken at the time) and returned to a relationship with the One who never left me, God.

     Now, I am excited to see how God will use me and where He wants to lead me.