So I always find it hard to talk about myself but here it goes…
I was raised in a Christian home. I actually am one of those PK’s (pastor’s kid). My family always took mission trips down to Mexico growing up. When I was 12 years old, my sister told me what it meant to have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ and at first I didn’t understand what she meant but I took the time to think things through. A few months later, I finally got it and I knew I wanted to have that.
I really tried to please God and please my parents growing up. I almost always asked myself, “How would God feel if I did this?” or “How would my parents feel if I did that?” because I truly have respect for them. I am not saying that I am perfect. I made mistakes. However, I feel that my parents were always proud of the decisions I made.
On March 31, 2005 my mom passed away from diabetes. I am not going to lie, I was mad at God. Here I was, trying to please God and my parents and I felt like God had let me down. My mom was an AMAZING woman of God and I tried my hardest to be one as well. “What did I do to deserve this?”, “Why did my mom deserve to go through the pain she did?”
I turned from God, the church and my family and turned to a ungodly relationship. I felt that my boyfriend understood me better than God. After about a year, I realized there was no one better to turn to than God. I left the broken relationship (that I didn’t realize was broken at the time) and returned to a relationship with the One who never left me, God.
Now, I am excited to see how God will use me and where He wants to lead me.
