Since being here, I haven’t really felt connected with God. Every day I asked God to draw near to me and even though I knew He hadn’t left me, I just felt empty. To add to it, I didn’t feel like God was using me in anyway. I didn’t feel broken for these people… nothing!
I was even afraid to tell my team that I wasn’t feeling what they were feeling. Saturday morning, I felt so lost and empty that I felt that I wasn’t ready to go into Guachupita and tell these people about God when I couldn’t even feel Him. I knew that I couldn’t do this on my own strength but didn’t feel His strength upon me. I just broke down and cried. That’s when God gently said, “Through your brokenness, you will truly understand My love.”
On Saturday night, I talked to Dave and just poured out my feelings. He let me know how I have been a blessing to the people of Guachupita and how he has seen God move through me. He also gave me some advice on how to have quiet time with God (I never was taught how). After an amazing night with God, I felt refreshed Sunday morning.
I went into Guachupita Sunday morning excited to see what God was going to do. We started our day of fellowship with a great lunch. We then went into worship; which I wish you could hear. The children’s songs to God are beautiful and the excitement in their voices makes it even more powerful. We then prayed, Dave read some scripture and then we prayed again. But this time was different. This is what changed my whole day. We asked if any of them wanted to pray and a few of the children stepped up and prayed.
